Post by Blossoming on Dec 21, 2020 0:18:58 GMT -5
Do you find yourself behaving like click groups instead of being your original self? We could help prevent ourselves so much trauma of frustrations if we just were ourselves and dealt with just being us instead of trying to fit in or go with the crowd. Maybe you can relate with what I am going to share. Starting out at 20 years old, I had just graduated from high as I was a late bloomer. I had plans to work two jobs all the way to the top well into my 30's, purchase a condominium by 25 years old and have my own small restaurant. Boy, most young people at Job Corps like myself who were hard and serious workers came from the worst bottom of severe poverty and our goal was to rise to the top no matter what. Of course, no one wants to be left behind and you all want the same thing. However, many of us took different paths because we overworked ourselves and we were all disabled in some type of way. Guess what we all had in common? Severe Sexual and physical abuse. Some of us worked and bleed so bad, we were saying, " I can take it, I'm young, I am aiming not to be poor and left behind in a poor pit of poverty again". Some experienced pain unbearable all over or in their backs for those who had been abused on their backs for years. Many felt like failures. Some decided they knew they couldn't work 20-60 hours a week anymore, so they applied for Social Security and started drawing it. For some, it was the worst time of their life, they felt like a failure because they were not able to work like the average twenty something and thirty something year old. Some, that was drawing Social Security didn't give up, they applied for certain mobile homes and hud housing, had to take courses, kept their values, got accepted to attend school part time and eventually moved into a 3 bedroom hud home or manufactured home based on how their conditions came about from childhood or teenage years, through no fault of their own. Many continued to work no matter what and often had heart attacks and strokes because they were so afraid to live in continued poverty. They had their nice homes and alot of cash but they ignored their health. Sometimes it's better to settle for a smaller home or town home and work on your health condition instead trying to keep up with the Jones. Poverty can be scary, especially if you grew up in it and now you can't do the things the average person should be doing at your age. For me I worked but 6 months here and there because I had such overwhelming pain throughout my whole body. yes, I lived in the worse housing projects but I didn't have to loose my values and integrity I was taught and found constructive things to do with my life. You don't have to become your environment, I was more concern about surviving through situations in my life and not fitting in.
In the toughest of times we have to do what's best for us, even if push comes to shove and we need to move somewhere where we can afford it. My grandmother was raped by a Caucasian man and was impregnated by him with my mom. Well this man had all kinds of diseases in his family and it caused my grandma some issues, my mom some issues and all ten children she had, had at least 3-5 different conditions that was different from each other from the rape due to my grandma rape and then my mom was raped growing up. As a result, I was born with low blood sugar, I mean low I was a purple looking color, both of my legs was slightly broke when I was born in the middle, one leg was longer than the other, my vertebrae was broken slightly. SO, I had to where a belt like sandals around my legs with bells, mainly the left leg because it was turned to the left and I wouldn't been able to crawl and walk, so that's how my left leg corrected itself. My The doctors showed my younger brother Charles who was 13 how to stretch my legs out everyday for about 5 minutes each leg to help with the slight brokenness and he helped put the clothing cast on my neck and off to help my neck sit up like it should and spine bone to grow more in the back. I also had issues with my white blood cells, so my dad had to be celibate for 3-6 months at a time in order to give me blood and give me his white blood cells, that's how I stayed alive and my spine started growing back, my dad donating his blood and white blood cells to me. I am most grateful and thankful to be here. My whole sister before me, passed three minutes after my mom had her, she had multiple scorrosis, some of the bone in her back was missing, she would have lived an awful life, my mom was going to take care of her anyway but she stopped breathing and passed. I have pain from time to time from my issues but I am most grateful that the doctors helped me correct my issues as a baby. I learned to tolerate alot of pain because the doctors didn't want me to have much medication and I become dependent upon them. Sometimes people can have hidden issues you cannot see, just like you might have hidden issues you never shared or others don't know about. It's okay if it's some things you cannot do at any age, it's best to do what you can and learn what works for you by being your original self. I do yoga from time to time for me, it's better than any medication and so is prayer and medication. As i need medicine I take it when I can't tolerate the pain. We don't have to always tell our friends our issues if we are uncomfortable with it. Some don't want to hang with others but who wear expensive clothing and who live in nicer homes and sometimes you may get rejected for it. It's best to keep your health, many times others are living above their means. Nice things are okay but it's not good to jeopardize your health because of it. keeping your dignity and doing the best with the income you have is a greater dignity. Remember, you are instilling values, dignity and a lifestyle in you and your children if you have them, that will last a life time and it's gonna take them almost a lifetime to relearn bad habits you've taught them.
In the toughest of times we have to do what's best for us, even if push comes to shove and we need to move somewhere where we can afford it. My grandmother was raped by a Caucasian man and was impregnated by him with my mom. Well this man had all kinds of diseases in his family and it caused my grandma some issues, my mom some issues and all ten children she had, had at least 3-5 different conditions that was different from each other from the rape due to my grandma rape and then my mom was raped growing up. As a result, I was born with low blood sugar, I mean low I was a purple looking color, both of my legs was slightly broke when I was born in the middle, one leg was longer than the other, my vertebrae was broken slightly. SO, I had to where a belt like sandals around my legs with bells, mainly the left leg because it was turned to the left and I wouldn't been able to crawl and walk, so that's how my left leg corrected itself. My The doctors showed my younger brother Charles who was 13 how to stretch my legs out everyday for about 5 minutes each leg to help with the slight brokenness and he helped put the clothing cast on my neck and off to help my neck sit up like it should and spine bone to grow more in the back. I also had issues with my white blood cells, so my dad had to be celibate for 3-6 months at a time in order to give me blood and give me his white blood cells, that's how I stayed alive and my spine started growing back, my dad donating his blood and white blood cells to me. I am most grateful and thankful to be here. My whole sister before me, passed three minutes after my mom had her, she had multiple scorrosis, some of the bone in her back was missing, she would have lived an awful life, my mom was going to take care of her anyway but she stopped breathing and passed. I have pain from time to time from my issues but I am most grateful that the doctors helped me correct my issues as a baby. I learned to tolerate alot of pain because the doctors didn't want me to have much medication and I become dependent upon them. Sometimes people can have hidden issues you cannot see, just like you might have hidden issues you never shared or others don't know about. It's okay if it's some things you cannot do at any age, it's best to do what you can and learn what works for you by being your original self. I do yoga from time to time for me, it's better than any medication and so is prayer and medication. As i need medicine I take it when I can't tolerate the pain. We don't have to always tell our friends our issues if we are uncomfortable with it. Some don't want to hang with others but who wear expensive clothing and who live in nicer homes and sometimes you may get rejected for it. It's best to keep your health, many times others are living above their means. Nice things are okay but it's not good to jeopardize your health because of it. keeping your dignity and doing the best with the income you have is a greater dignity. Remember, you are instilling values, dignity and a lifestyle in you and your children if you have them, that will last a life time and it's gonna take them almost a lifetime to relearn bad habits you've taught them.